Sunday, December 26, 2010

Let it Snow!

Snow is an amazing phenomenon. It consists of tiny ice crystals that form into very unique shapes. So unique in fact that there are no two snowflakes alike. Ok, so we all know that snow can be a pain in the butt, it's a pain to shovel-can truly wear you out and make you so tired-, causes traffic problems-there can be accidents if people do not drive slowly and cautiously-. It can also cause wrenches in our plans-whether it be going out to dinner, to a party, on a date, whether it be traveling by plane and stranded in an airport somewhere or any plans you may have. These are not so fun or exciting and can make snow a drag. However just think for just a moment, close your eyes and remember the magic that snow can really bring. The amazing smell of a fresh fallen snow. This magical white stuff falls from the skies and lays upon the world and changes things very dramatically, but also naturally-no technology, no money, free of charge-making things brighter and lighter, fluffier...It gives all the opportunity to go out and build snowmen and create snow angels. We can even make free snow cones. Snow can bring people together in a very sentimental way. So next time it snows, remember the magic of it all and that each little flake is unique, just like you and me.

Monday, December 13, 2010

"Yes, Virginia! There is a Santa Claus!"

Dear Santa,
I don't need to be Virginia to believe in you Santa Claus. I believed in for as long as I can remember. That's a long time seeing as I am in my mid-thirties. Did you know that I was related to a man who kept your magic alive, by dressing in a gorgeous red suit every Christmas season. When he wore the suit he became apart of your magic. He made children smile and happy-two things that are so special about Christmas time. Yes as children we get excited about the wrapped joys under the tree, but we still love the magic. The magic of reindeer flying through the sky. The magic of a man able to climb down chimneys and make enough gifts for all children around the world. This is the kind of magic that is special and unique and must be passed on for generations and generations. This man who wore the red suit passed on about 2 years ago. It was a sad day to lose a man with such a huge heart, a man who was Santa when he was wearing the red suit trimmed in fur. Though his body has passed on, he will never be forgotten. He will always be in our hearts, especially those of us who truly believe. The red suit has been passed on to the next generation to a man who loves Christmas as much as Santa himself. Once again when the suit is worn, Magic happens and hearts are warmed, wishes are answered and the kids in all of us begin to return. We return to a place where a tree with lights is a place where all your dreams can come true. A place where joy lies, not just in the gifts hidden in paper and bows, but the smiles and love that went into the gifts and the joy they bring when opened. Santa I believe in you. I truly believe in the magic of Christmas. Christmas has been different for me the last years. They have been a little difficult since I lost my mom and the man that once wore the suit. They meant a lot to me during these days. I no longer live in the place where I stayed up all night in my bed, with the glow of Christmas lights shining in my room, because I begged my parents to leave them on all night on Christmas Eve, so you were sure to stop in for some cookies. My house was amazingly decorated with lights galore that my dad and I spent hours putting up. When we came in from the cold, my mom had warmed the house with hot chocolate and the most lovely inside decorations you could imagine, with a choo choo and all. She made it special, very special. I miss her everyday, but this time of year is hard. My dad is doing ok and for the first time since she passed he has decorated his place. I believe in the magic Santa. Thank you for letting my dad find this magic too. I know he feels it when he puts on the red suit that was passed on to him, but I hope he can feel it always. I am fortunate I have an amazing aunt who has helped me always keep the Christmas Magic in my heart-my mom wouldn't have wanted it any other way. She was a giver. She gave so much, she forgot about herself. I am sorry about this. I am thankful that I had such a wonderful aunt to be there for me always and help me through the hard moments in life, my career, and with the loss of my mom. My aunt is amazing. If you have time maybe you could give her a special gift that will help her with some of her troubles. She really deserves the world. She does more for our family than all of us put together. She just gives, gives, and gives more. I don't know the perfect gift that will make her realize how special she is. Santa, you are perfect with this, you are not as indecisive. She could use a few breaks, maybe help her win the power ball-I know not really your thing-and sounds a little selfish, but trust me she will put it to give use and she so deserves it. She does so much for everyone and this way she can continue to help all of us, but lots of stress could go away. She could use a little break. She's amazing at all the things she does for her mom, her dad, her sister, her nephews, her brothers and all her family, especially me. She has helped me become a good person. I want good to come to her, so I thought I would ask you. Either way Santa, I believe in you and will for the rest of my life. You are an inspiration-a magical figure that represents innocence and childhood-things we all need to hold on to. They can make life much more worthwhile. Santa, thank you for continuing on your journey and never letting nonbelievers get to you. Keep up the magic-there are many people who believe in you. I should know, I am one of them.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Love the one you with...Love the one that loves you...Nah love the one you dream about.

It's true your love life would be so much easier if you could just love the one that your with. The person is already here. You have conquered the most challenging by finding the person. They are there right with you. There is no need to go out and look for someone else. There isn't anyone saying, "aren't you married yet?"  "When are you gonna find someone?"  The person is already there, right there, right in front of you. No more clubs, bars, dating sites, none of it. It's already done. You have captured the feat and found someone, so love them. It's the easy thing to do. People would stop bugging you. You can stop the search if you just love the one your with. Better yet Love the one who loves you. Wow! Someone loves you deeply and ready to give their all. All their love, body, and soul. You have someone who loves you unconditionally no matter what. No matter if you change the color of your hair or cut it short. Someone to love you no matter the size of your clothes. Someone to love you even with stretch marks, bed print marks on your face, and even bad morning breath. Someone to wake up next to every morning who smiles at you and says how much they love you, every day. Someone who will do anything for you no matter what. This is an easy way to go as well. No stress about finding someone to love you. They are there every morning every day. This is it then, the choice love the one who loves you. Is this the right way to love. There is no right way to love. Love is right, no matter what way it occurs. Loving another is special and sometimes rare. So love when you can, but don't let your heart settle. I believe that the first two are fine and someone could be truly happy with loving these ways. However, I am someone who can't just love the one I'm with or love the one who loves me. I have tried, tried very hard. I have failed. I couldn't get myself to do so. It didn't feel the way I always dreamt about. Since I was a little girl I have dreamt of my life and what it would be like and when it came to love, I dreamt of a fairy tale. I know, you're all saying, but that's ridiculous. Fairy Tales are for the movies, books, stories, make believe. Well I truly believe that the true love portrayed in these movies, books, and stories does exist. I believe that one can have the love they always dreamed about, even if they have to wait a lifetime to find it. I am willing to wait for as long as it takes. I know that there will be moments, even days where things might not be so peachy, but I long to love this way, all the butterflies. I want if all. I want to feel the MAGIC.