Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Half Empty

I have absolutely no idea, not when it comes to myself anyway. Thirty-five years ago I was given a life. A life full of opportunity and love. I was very fortunate in the life I was given. I had constant and unconditional love. I was given opportunities that others dream of having, so why then I ask..."Why am I so lost and unhappy?" I just don't know. I feel that my life is passing me by and I am not taking advantage of anything. I am just floating by missing out. Every day I get a little older...I have more days that I have been alive. More days that I have been given to do something with, but I haven't done too much with them...ok I have done something, but I don't feel as if I am living my life to it's fullest. I feel half empty. I need more out of life. I don't want to sound selfish or anything, but I do. I want as much as I can. I think that there is so much I want that I can't focus and I get overwhelmed with everything that is out there. Wait maybe that is not such a bad thing. I mean I am only half full so I have lots of room for all of it, right? Alrighty then, I am going to start filling up. Where to start....any thoughts...crap I am lost again!!

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Escaping to Ecstasy

Ecstasy, according to Merriam-Webster, means "An overwhelming feeling of great happiness or joyful excitement." So wouldn't we all like to escape to this place. This place full of joy and happiness. So we ask ourselves, "Where is this joyous place of bliss and complete contentment?" Well there isn't just one right answer. To each of us this place will be a different destination. It will require a different travel itinerary. These destinations are completely endless. They may be attainable at the place you stand right now. They may require thousands of miles of travel. The destination may require a minute of time to reach or a lifetime of trial and error. Ecstasy is happiness, if only for just a moment, without any glitches or roadblocks. There isn't any construction in the place of Ecstasy. So where is your Ecstasy? For me it is forever changing. I find that my Ecstasy Escape Destination changes at a crazy rate. Sometimes it is one destination, other times it's another. However, today it is clear. I can paint the picture of my Ecstasy today. Today I feel myself sitting peacefully alone on an island with the sun shining down on me. The only sound is that of the ocean beating against the sand like a steady peaceful heartbeat. The weather is a perfection of blue skies, solid sunshine and temperatures of the utmost comfort. My entire being is more relaxed than ever before with nothing on my mind, but true and compete happiness. My mind is quiet and on a true vacation. There are absolutely no decisions to be made, because the things I need and want just appear beside me before I have to think about wanting or needing them. They are met way in advance. Wow what a beautiful day of true bliss! What a day of Ecstasy!